aikarumba!

woooo so havent made an entry in a while, but with all the thanksgiving stuff going on, I had a hard time finding time. But jeez was that a pain, trying to pretend to eat. and my family is really southern and OBSESSED with food. but at least 3 people were like wow, you look really different, i think your much skinnier. and one of my aunts commented on my bony hips. YAY! i love bony hips, they are my favorite part. And after a temporary blip on my weight loss program, im about 114 now, so thats only 4 away from my short term goal. Yay! Shouldnt be hard, considering ive already lost 7 pounds in about a week. i have to put my mind to it! thats all!

but i had this really disturbing conversation with my best friend who ive known forever, and she was like you know i was looking at you the other day and wondering what you would look like if you gained 5 pounds. and i was like EWWW no! I would never gain 5 pounds! i would look gross! I want to LOSE 5 pounds! and she was like, no dont do that!! you will look like you have an eating disorder. your SOOOO SKINNY dont lose more weight. and i didnt say anything, but i was thinking, perfect thats the way i want to look. so its working! people have noticed. even my new boyfriend told me he could count my vertebrae. and that i was "full of prominent bone structures". aka, kate your a bony little thing. yay! that makes me so happy!